No idea what I’m waiting for, again.
Jennifer E. Smith, The Statistical Probability of Love at First Sight
“A happy family is but an earlier heaven.”
An outdoor photoshoot with fam yesterday. Thinking about it just makes me smile.. Remembering the things we did, the process. A cherished memory :) All were more than happy.
In this silence of the night, wearied heart and mind. Can’t get to sleep, thinking..
In recent years I found a whole new meaning to family, my kind of family. No it is not exactly perfect. But we don’t need to live in tumblr worthy lofts or country styled houses to be. We need to appreciate people.
It could be a mother supporting her daughters through their universities, saving up for snow holidays. Having unexpected snowball fights with each other, each in different coloured uggs. It could be just a pinky promise to one child, but mum brings them to Aussie for a week.
It could be her buying her daughter a dream guitar, or worried and waiting for this mindless girl at home from hour long midnight runs.
It could be sisters who funnily have a love-hate relationship with each other, but think of each other despite fights, communicate through expressions and have an odd interest in matcha. It is a dear sister who is sleeping so soundly now, who covers me with my kicked off blankets in my vague morning memory.
It is a mother and sister who scare the wits out of themselves when the neighbor brings out unleashed (cute) dogs. A fear I still cannot fathom.
It is closely knitted people that always have naive surprises for each other and still catch each other off guard. It is people that share a laughter about anything, yet serious about many others.
It is what I have now, just the 3 of us, my kind of perfect. Can never thank God enough.
Too precious is an understatement. Though there are good and definitely bad times too. What I have is sufficient, more than enough, and will do. Though broken, I have what I need to keep me going. So thankful that it almost always brings a tear to my face.
I hope you find your earlier heaven :)